Secrets

When I googled the definition of secret, it stated something that is kept or meant to be kept unknown or unseen by others. It could be more than this, but basically, everyone reached to the understanding of this generalised definition. 

Relevant enough to describe your secret tears, secret fears, secret emotions, secret thoughts, secret hardships, secret battles.

It becomes more secretive when you don't feel secure enough to share with anyone else. Sometimes, we say that Allah knows our secrets. Yes, He knows every of your struggles. But if that acknowledgement by knowing that Allah knows does not help you enough to get through it, it means that you don't FEEL ENOUGH to know Allah will help you through it, because you feel more of those burdens of your hardships. He owns you, He owns your life, owns those people around you, owns this world. Just look at the sky, it floats without anything but His power! Then how can you worry and being sad so much over those things in your life. To Him, its easy peasy to change it. But He wants you, to know how valuable pain is, when you experience it because thats how people could change themselves to the better.

Feeling:

Allah < hardships

That is the mistake of our heart. We don't FEEL the power of Allah has. We worry things, which is beyond our control,

We become sad over things like pasts which is not under our control anymore, we keep those secrets, mourning over it. And not feeling enough how much Allah loves you to make you learn something from it. Not realising enough how much its good for you. Remind yourself that this world is His kingdom. Imagine as if the world is like a crystal ball, and He is the King. He sees it, EVERYTHING. So don't say that Allah does not know enough or Allah does not know how hurt it is like. That pain is actually saving you from something else which even worst. This plays a big role to acknowledge and feel it in our heart to be strong, to reach that level of strength. And this comes within ourselves, not anyone else. People can only inspire you, but YOU initiate your movement, YOU start those little steps. Because this is about YOU. Because its YOUR secret, YOUR heart, YOUR present, YOUR future. And remember, when it comes to YOU, YOU are HIS'. So He has the willingness to help you. Always. 

This is not easy. No. But those little bits of pain will give you the reason why you could smile broadly one day, thankful of whatever that has happened <3 as long as you notice the progression to remove yourself from this darkness, appreciate yourself, even if its just a small progression. And don't punish yourself, love yourself enough as you know He is helping you out. He is.