Solitary

Being alone is miserable sometimes. To the times when you really need someone to hold onto, especially your bestfriends or family whom are far away from your place. With so many things going on with your life, you pause your life with miserable thinking. Because you just can't bear with a lot of things in life alone. Of course, we are all weaklings.

But there are some days solitary taught you about being independent. A lot of independency and freedom for yourself. To not be clingy with the things in the world. To be free. Overly attached to someone is nice, with their company. Their comfort are all that we ever need during downside. But to be solitary is also a freedom to yourself so that you can stand on your own feet without being TOO attached to your loved ones nor anything else.

Be not the prisoner of this world. Neither the people or money or qualifications. You need to have that awareness which put you to the level where you need those to placed them ONLY in your hand. Not in your heart. Does the soul ever hunger for those things? No, its only the "needs" of the world. You need them to get a good job, you need them to get a good life. Okay maybe we need them, yes. But it is because we always thought it could lead us to happiness and serenity. Serenity cannot be felt unless you're sitting there looking at the sun rise, alone, reflecting and consume God's love & care. 

Its hard to endure loneliness. Its very powerful because it can take control over your life whether to the good path or vice versa. 

To feel good in solitary doesn't mean that you can go on with life on your own. Without anyone or anything. It means that you are POWERFUL ENOUGH to kick off all those haunting negative feelings to the fact that "no one is at your side" even if it takes some time. As long as you can deal with it, solitary feels JUST right and that's what we ever needed. 

Healing. Solitary is also a healing process to keep yourself together from whatever that already taken over you or still taking control over you. 

Solitary might be miserable. But also a miracle. And its amazing when someone is able to see the hidden things of life and feel contented during solitary.

Your loved ones might be far away, yes. Far away from your sight or maybe not in this world. But to remind yourself that their love always exist, even when they're out of sight, is really important. Just like Allah always does. His love always exists, right? And it never dies even if He is always out of sight. Feel the love under your skin and feel the love in your heart with warm and sparks. Love is always there. Even in solitary. 

Everytime I curse solitary, I've always remind myself that there will always be the times of loneliness in my life. Whether I like it or not. Whether I'm with people or without people. Whether I'm with family or without them. 

"We are all sentenced to solitary confinement inside our own skins, for life." -Tennessee Williams

So I need to know how to deal with it through freedom of self. Without hurting anyone or anything around me. Especially not hurting myself more. Always prioritise yourself in matters like this because if you forget to count yourself in, you won't be able to deal life well. Just remember no matter how screwed you are in life, there's always light to guide you if you have that true deligency. Never stop praying for goodnesses. Just so you could feel contented even with loneliness/ during solitary.

I'm always constantly learning to help myself in solitary and loneliness. I'm constantly exploring