This isn't me

I've become miserable day to day
No words come out to ever say
One little word or show some compassion
If you saw my heart it's full of compassion
But it seems like everything I do is wrong
I think it'd be better off if I'm gone
Because if you saw me you'd probably cry
Because the look on my face says I want to die
This isn't how I usually am
Usually I'm at the beach playing in the sand
Or maybe singing with my band
I have nothing left but one little thing
It's called love and that's my dream