AGONY OF EXILE AND IMPENDING HOPE

Agony of Exile and Impending Hope

Life was uni-dimensional
One direction
Forcing me run
Not in circles
But
Straight lines
Parallel lines
Don't meet
Would've known my limit
If the lines met

Several attempts
To converge the lines
Failed
Fled
Leaving my families & friends
Behind

Tried to
Avoid pain
But pain
Never abandoned me
Always pursued me
Even after I left
Fixated on my head
As migraine
Pain unwanted
Came along
Uninvited

Safe with the knowledge
No one is pursuing me
Despite my age
Summoned courage
Migraine and me
Hurriedly left
Run, run for dear life

Confided with myself
Said quietly
Am free at last
At least for the moment
Gave me respite

Doubt took over
Am not sure
How to conquer
My fear of
Unkown future

Said to myself
Can't be worst
Than the life I left
Miserable life
Living under constant dread
Fear
For my dear life
And those left behind

Life full of strife
Bedeviled me
Not only at the moment
But all the time
For decades
Seemed like a life time

Now am 'free'
So I thought
Free to think
Of the unthikable
Loudly said
Am not under no ones control

Still, am tormented
Memory of exile
Nightmares
Hounding guilt
Have taken control

Feel guilty
Leaving loved ones behind
Dictated by reality
Convinced myself
Not to feel sorry
At least for myself

Grief
Paradox
Gave me relief
Time to 'relax'
Grief
Comes with its retinue of woes
Re-invigorated myself
Changed from what I was
Advised myself
Chin up
Can't afford feel guilty
Think of workable strategy

Look up
Down & beyond
Think positively
Look around
Change is coming
Even
For those left behind
Is definitely coming

Change is coming
Not only here
But over there
For people power
Will reach everywhere

People left behind
Have come of age
Will bring about change
Change in themselves
And others

Might have come
For 'green pastures'
How about those Left behind
Do they expect 'green pastures'?

Hope God will be merciful
Will accord them
Life of glee
Life that is peaceful

God helps
Those who help themselves
Their salvation
Is within themselves
Salvation
Can't be imported
Is in abundance inside

Sceptic
Hoping against hope
Jumped up
And down
Said
They'll see light
Freedom torch
Will soon approach

Will see the light
Shining bright
Ushering hope & delight
Would be
Permanent fixture
Sign of the future
Its rays spreading
Far and wide
All around
Brightening the lives
Of all those
Who remained behind
Freedom ,illusive
Will be conclusive
No more dream
Unrealistic
But real & fantastic