SQUATTER ( 2 )

SQUATTER ( 2 )

Imagine yourself
Being a squatter
Not only yourself
But your other self
Squatter
In a house
You use 2 call your own
Now you don't own

You have become
'Unwanted guest'
The house
Is your temporary abode
You are not on board

The house
Is not your own
Is what I felt today
Of all days
Today

An angry demon
Dormant for 4 dacades
Raised its ugly heads
And
Tentacles

Made me loose my cool
Not only with myself
But
My loved ones
And
My other self

Made me feel alone
In a household of four
Lonely and isolated
Felt forlorn
Rendering me
Inadequate
And
Redundant

Controlled
By
Everybody
Save myself
How I longed
To
Master myself

Today felt
Don't belong
To myself
Don't own anything
Let alone my house
Even myself

Not that am interested
In material things
Except my
Positive inner thoughts

Am now owned
By someone else
Or
Controlled
By dark
Mysterious thoughts

Am lost
Oozing out
I see
Disturbing thought

Am forlorn
Am not me anymore
Forsaken
And
Abandoned

Am just a squatter
In a house
I use to call my own

Left home
Over three & a half
Decades ago
Pleasant memories
I can't let go

Lived like a squatter
Here
Thought
And
Felt delight

But
Come to think of it
Don't belong anywhere
Let alone here

Am just a squatter
Exist for the moment
Until am out of here

Lived & felt a squatter
Even in a country
I now call my own
My house is not my own
Asked myself
Who am I
What do I own?

Squatter, squatter
When will I have
A house
A country
I really call my own?

Told myself
Lots of soul searching
Went on
Questioning
What I own

Think
An idea I like
The very thought
Gave me excitement
And delight

Reached a conclusion
After much deliberation
I like being a squatter
For
I don't belong here
But
Everywhere
Do I need a home
If home is everywhere?

As a squatter
My need
Is not only
Shelter over my head
But also
Shelter from
Abuse
Persecution
Exploitation
Discrimination
Pollution
And shelter from
Disease
Poverty
Anger and hunger

Above all
Gift to be enjoyed
By all
Shelter from
Disturbance of mind
For
I desperately need
Peace of mind

I rationalised
Said to myself
Am mere mortal
Have come to terms
With myself
And my other self
Am not immortal
Let alone my house
This world
Is my temporary place
Am like a tourist
Ephemeral guest