Hallejuah Morning Sunlight

Dear Diary,

I am awake now. Finished showering. Ready for a brand new day. All is as it is in life. It just is. And I'm rambling on about nothing, just to write something. Something which I can look back on.

I woke up this morning...and realized my eyes hurt. I threw my hand over my eyes, 10 minutes later realizing it was the sunlight streaming in through my window. God how I love the morning sunlight. It's so beautiful the way it streams in through my window, another day, a fresh start. Hallejuah says the atheist for she knows no word to describe the feeling she feels when she sees the morning sunlight. Joy & exhultation. That's what she feels. That's what I feel as I switch back and forth between 3rd and 1st person as I type these words.

I love the sunlight. It has symbolic meaning for me. When i was deepy depressed, and I couldnt take it anymore, I'd just go to bed & I'd feel better in the morning. There is a dawn to the blackest of nights & we often forget that there WILL be a dawn, when we feel as though our pain will never go away. We forget. We lose hope...and when we lose hope we lose our will to live & it's as if we are half-dead.

Hope is precious. It keeps us holding on when we want so badly to let go. To surrender into the darkness and the pain.

If we give up, we will never stand up. Ever.

"Never, never, NEVER, give up" - Winston Churchill

He was right. We should never give up. He never gave up. Not when Germany conquered poland, chezoslovakia or France. Nor when the Nazis were banging on Stalin's door.

He fought for his country's freedom.

We shoud fight for our souls/piece of mind too. It's our little country to defend. We can never give up to the darkness. If the sunlight isnt shining in through our windows we have to find a lamp and shed our own light until the morning comes. Light to keep away the fear, the hopelessness, the tears, a light to comfort us.

Oh never give up.

Ever.

Forever rage rage against the dying of your inner light. For it is precious, more than you will ever know.

And smile...smile even if you are sad, angry, or just cant stand on your own anymore. We only have a set amount of time on this earth. So smile....work through your pain...

and you'll find that light...it'll come and your soul will be warmed again.

-Soph