Remember me with love

I wanted to hold you so tight in my arms
Watch you whilst you slept, captivated by your charms
I wanted to count ten fingers, ten toes
Gaze into your eyes, kiss your tiny nose
Feel your rosebud lips as you drank from my breast
Feel your softness and warmth as you lay on my chest
Stroke your head, Would you have had dark hair or light?
Comfort you when you cried in the deep dark of night
I wanted to try to be the best mother
To gain some forgiveness for killing your sister or brother
This was my hope, my dream for you and me
But sadly it seems it was not meant to be
Let go now sweet baby, for you cannot stay
I know that I have to let you go on your way
But take with you my love for you and your brother
From your sad and tearful broken hearted mother
And when you both look down on me from above
Please forgive me my faults and remember me with love.