Conversations With Myself

By skinner_jennifer

Mon, 18 Jul 2011
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Who are these strange spies I see
cold - floating around in my head,
how did they penetrate my inner
self? questions need answers,

flashes keep playing in my mind, they
burst forth and no sleep can I find,
the demons have returned from the past
how they broke through I cannot grasp,

my brain needs to come untwined like
many layers of tangled webs weaved -
flashes will they ever stop wavering?
like candlelight flick - flash - flick,

***

don't be afraid to step outside
together we'll walk side by side,
each step we take don't be afraid
remember it's all in your mind's eye,

I'm gonna lay my head down again
on your strong shoulders...knowing
that you care...I feel lucky I'm
alive even though times are trying.

Certificate 12
Poem
Poems
Autobiography

Comments

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on
This is lovely, Jenny;-) Just a couple of minor typos. Should be 'burst forth', second stanza and fourth stanza, should be 'mind's eye'. Again, this is a departure from your usual style, and it shows your versality. Very much enjoyed. Tina

 

Submitted by Highhat on
I completely agree with Tina- I love the way you are following the inspiration from your emotions. They are strong and luckily you are writing them down. I am sure it is one of the best forms for therapy and really do wish for you that it is of some aid to you in your confusion. I would like to say that if you wrote "how did they penetrate my inner self-" instead of through into- that is not necessary as penetrate is enough to explain it. Welldone and please I hope you feel very much better soon- It's good you have a strong shoulder to lean on- that' s what we all should have in such trying times.I have my sisters and son and I am thankful for that. well I am rambling.... atb ;)Pia

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Hi Tina, firstly thanks for the help and I've now put them right. You are very kind to say that you enjoyed reading this, I really am looking forward to getting back to my usual writing, it feels somehow strange to write such morbid stuff, which is why in the second half of this piece, I wanted to focus on the positive point, rather than being negative. Hopefully this is the end of these thoughts I have been having. Thankyou again for reading and leaving a comment. Jenny.

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Hi Pia, Thankyou for your advice, I agree with you it does look better as you said, so I have changed it. Writing has always been a therapy to me, well that and the other beliefs that I have. The only bit I have a problem with, is the flash backs, but I believe in time they will leave. I just need to focus myself, which sometimes does take a lot of strength especially at the moment. Thankyou for your getting better wishes, they are really appreciated and I'm glad you are well and have the support you need. Again thankyou for reading and your comments. Jenny.

 

Submitted by Highhat on
You know Jenny- I get flash backs too and they can be quite disturbing but as you say I find that time helps me to keep a distance to the incidents and the flashbacks fade, but then sometimes new incidents turn up and really you've got to stay strong and calm and not let them knock you out. You didn't get knocked out completely I can see and I am so glad to know that you have quite a bit of raw strength to help you through and writing is so good for you. I am really amazed at the way you just can get it out. You are a true artist! atb have a wonderful Tuesday ;)Pia

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Thanks Pia, I've never really been good at talking about myself, but when things become strained, it just needs to be said. I used to keep diaries and that helped a lot, but that was before I found ABC TAlES and I have to say, its a lot better, because you actually get to talk to another human, rather than a 'Dear Diary,' if you know what I mean. Thankyou for coming back to me, and I will try to listen to some calming music and meditate. Jenny.

 

Submitted by Cavalcader on
new skinner_jennifer Just say hope all is going, well for you, I do unsderstand a s have been there, in most things good and bad. So deleted long letter. Also what lost has been found thank goodness. Jenny, hope you will pick up feeling better soon, only can say taken me years! of all. Rest is not typed cos. Justice and caution. Keep writing hot chocalate, wine, soft music relaxation and mediate, I did one on here way back. Truly works. Hunny bun keep those great poems and stories coming ok. Covert thought good no bad papers tv before bed. Tell yourself I will sleep well. I was once like you. Take care all the best julie xx

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Dear julie, thankyou so much for your nice comments. I'm feeling a lot better, just needed to take my time. Things are slowly getting back to normal. It's really nice to know that there are people like you out there that really care and I do appreciate what you have said. I hope the sun is shining down on you, it looks like it could be a good weekend. You take care too. Jenny.

 

Submitted by Richard L. Prov... on
I hope you overcome most of the difficult challenges in life. Writing is very therapeutic, and at the same time squeezes out all those wonderful feelings inside. Give the positive vibes lots of space. Take time to enjoy the simple things in life and continue to write these meaningful and well-expressed words. Cheers, Richard LP
Richard L. Provencher

Submitted by Highhat on
I agree with Richard- you need to get things out once in a while and it is so good if you can do it as you have here- expressing it in words on paper (text on a screen!!) . You can then turn things around to your own advantage by sharing it with others. It is not moaning- it is a part of artistic expression and inspiration- it is not always the bright things we are inspired by- we also have to let go of the dark sides of life by questioning our reason even though we don't always fully comprehend. I think you do it wonderfully here and with your latter poems. I really hope for you that it helps you to overcome life's difficult turns. I know it helps me expressing the hard times- just letting go of them. atb ;)Pia

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Hello Richard, there are such good people on here and I really do appreciate your words of kindness. I'm feeling a lot better and have managed to get some rest, which is wonderful. I suppose we have to have bad times in life, to appreciate what we've got and the good times. Your words are of great comfort to me and for that I thankyou so very much. You keep writing your wonderful, natural poems, because I love to read them. Thanks again. Jenny.

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Hello Pia, you are really kind and thoughtful, I know exactly what you mean about not keeping things in your head, but writing them down, but I'm not going to dwell on it anymore. It's so good when things start to heal, because it's like coming out of the dark and back into the light again, I feel a lot closer to the light now. Again Pia, thankyou for being there for me at this time, you have been a true friend. Jenny.

 

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on
Just popped back to say I hope the sun is shining where you are today, Jenny. I really do hope so;-) Tina

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Dear Tina, you are so kind to wish me a sunny day, I really do appreciate your kind thoughts. I too hope the sun is shining for you and yours. Wishing you a peaceful weekend. Jenny.

 

Submitted by Silver Spun Sand on
Thanks, Jenny. And you're welcome;-) Tina

 

Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on
"like candlelight flick - flash - flick" - that's a beautiful line Jenny - and what a lot of comments! You've obviously struck a chord with many people with this poem. I really enjoyed it - do keep writing and posting!

 

Submitted by skinner_jennifer on
Thankyou for reading insert, have now definitely come back to myself, feeling a lot better. I am very grateful for all the comments and votes of confidence. It's very rewarding to write on here, and to know that people care so much. Thanks again for your comment. Jenny.