Bipolar Episodes

My first bipolar episode happened around 2005. I had just gotten married and my wife was pregnant. It was not the best time for a bipolar episode but it just happened.

I remember going to the Cape Codder with my wife and I was just addicted to Beach Boys songs. I kept on singing "Wouldn't it be nice to be together even if it were just for one day," to my wife. Of course, I did not know the correct lyrics and I kept on singing whatever came to my mind. My wife was quite stressed because I acted like such a teenager, but I thought I was acting happy.

That very day, We ended up going to Martha's Vineyard and staying at a house/hotel for the night. For some reason, I thought the host was a Satanist. Of course, she wasn't, but I often have these delusions when I go on an episodes. Everything is fictional and whatever I think in mind is true, to me at least. There was a concert going on at the local church for some Sixties musician, but I missed the concert. I ended up going to a pub and drinking alone, leaving my wife by herself. At the pub, there was a party it looked like. I was dancing by myself when I thought Natalie Portman stepped onto the dance floor and she started dancing. I almost thought it was a party for Natalie Portman. I was just enjoying myself, dancing by myself. After an hour of dancing by myself, someone told me that someone was waiting for me outside. It was my wife, Inji, and I asked her to come in and dance but she wanted to go back to the hotel.

I thought she was spoiling all the fun and was not in a good mood. Was I really at a party thrown for Natalie Portman? I really wondered what was going on. I wasn't sure whether I was hallucinating or seeing the truth.

The next day, we went back home and I was going to take a business trip to Virginia with my wife, Inji, and my brother, Vincent.