I'm sorry

 

 

A tree, diseased I stand, needing fertiliser

To feed roots in this waste land of death

 

The sun dips beneath the roofs and the air

Turns cold like earth, I feel cold.

 

A wolf’s face I wear like a coat and bleed you dry

Of thoughts to answer with

 

A stranded blue sky... light hits my wondering eye

I feel life is passing me by and I can’t stop its momentum

 

Like a solitary bee struggling to survive clawing its way

Along a slatted garden fence in winter its wings crystalline,

Opaque vieny in the dying light

 

Slabs in the court yard hide the dying earth

Everything needs light to grow

 

Your light for me grows dim

My frame is frail like my shivering hands

 

As they cup the flickering flame

From the lit ivory candle stick

I use to light my chain smoked cigarettes

 

Fear uses every trick to keep me numb

And completes my hateful sentences

 

The moon starts to show through broken clouds

On one of those bright dual aspect days

 

And I only know its day because your texts tell me, “I missed you.”

My heart beats again and I don’t need to explain as words are not enough

 

We just know we are friends again

As the sun reflects off the window behind me

And the moon strengthens its shape.

 

I spoke with a devilish tongue

With a head confused containing the pain

Of my selfish heart,

 

But you still forgave  

As you opened the door for utterance once more

 

Not knowing I didn’t need philosophies or the wisdom to understand

 

But just to say the hardest words in the world to say

With a pure heart…"I'm sorry."