Remember?

Remember?

 

Remember who I was before you?

Before the mistakes

The uncertainty

The fear

The promiscuity?

 

When I was

Steady,

Sure,

And balanced?

 

Remember how I loved with no fear,

Gave more than I took,

Fought for the innocent,

And forgave the sorry?

 

Looks did not matter

Money was just paper

People came first

And enemies? What enemies?

 

Hmph.

This girl was sweet

Too sweet

Almost sickening.

 

She didn’t talk to guys like you

Instead she read her books

Crossed her legs

And minded her business

 

Her plan was lined out

clean cut and neat

all nicely aligned

timeline moving swell

 

But influence came along,

Why she listened?

No idea.

 

Perhaps largely misinterpreted,

Contorted,

Misread.

For reasons I still can’t fully comprehend.

 

Intentional?

I can’t decide.

Conflicting approaches

But her mind opened wide

 

I used to think you awakened me

But today I am not so sure

Uncertain of uncertainty

Only the greater knows

 

Do you remember that girl?

She would not take a hint of shit.

I remember that girl.

I like her better.