Café culture

By Parson Thru

Fri, 20 Dec 2019
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Did all this really happen?

Did I walk with open eyes into this hall of horrors?

Did I willingly throw so much away?

Perhaps it was the charge of selfishness, loitering in the wings, practicing its lines.

Perhaps a lapse of memory, decades of forgetting and redrawing situations, events and people.

Perhaps it was compassion or affection, after all.

Or just the money – a refusal to see what they’d accrued handed by an edict of the Cabinet of Millionaires to generous benefactors.

Perhaps it was political, then. Or, less high-minded, purely selfish.

Yes. Perhaps just that.

Which of these will be the last to die?

Which will form the epitaph?

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Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on

Is it helping to write it down?

 

Submitted by Parson Thru on

I'm torn really. I could post some of what I've written privately (all true), but I think it would be a mistake. Maybe looking for less direct ways to articulate things will help. Degrees of separation will be the way forward, I think.

The gist is fairly obvious, I hope. I feel like I've landed on a planet that there's a vague cultural memory of. But I am and will remain an alien.

The medical condition has made a bad situation intolerable. This is about cultures as much as individuals, though, and why I'm a firm believer in lifelong opportunity. But there needs to be some curiosity, some inquisitiveness, too. Maybe cultures can kill that. I'm sure they do. In the past, and still today. Insecure ones that feel the need to defend themselves. In fact, I think it's getting worse rather than better. My dad's "You won't learn anything from books. Get a job." will always stick with me. Similarly the often heard "Don't try to look clever." which someone said to me just the other day.

What's so painful is the fact that I've spent my days among such beautiful people and now this. The opposite of open mindedness, gentleness and generosity.

Thanks for asking. X

Parson Thru

Submitted by Insertponceyfre... on

Those are awful things to say : (. sending you a hug xx

 

Submitted by Parson Thru on

Thanks insert. Xx

Parson Thru

Submitted by Di_Hard on

I remember being told "you think you are so clever!"

replying "at least I think"

swiftly folllowed by

"OW!"

 

You will go back to Spain, it is a beautiful comfy boot you have taken off, to put on a  badly made shoe you grew out of years ago, just while you walk a path you must walk while your company is needed

 

Submitted by Parson Thru on

:)

Parson Thru