X-Fields of Joy

I find a soul; a soul that is lost,
Searching aimlessly throughout darkened walls.
Wanting, waiting, yearning to befound

I know i belong, i want to belong
But i cannot enter the world
I have been searching for.
I have travelled far, only to be shut out:
Excluded,
From the lifethat promises to blossom within.

No key seems to fit the door,
I have tried so many.
The gatekeeper simply pushes me away.
I stand and knock.
I beg to enter.
But although i can see and hear the joyous faces within these
gates,
They cannot, or choose not to hear me.
They laugh and scorn, and anger rages within them
Yet when i leave, all the hatred turns to laughter and happiness.

Day after day i return
To face the same humiliation.
I must not give up!
I cannot give up!
I am destined to be here;
To suffer this pain;
To endure the eternal torture,
Living only in the hope...

One day the sun will rise
The gates will open
And i shall be accepted and acknowledged
Within the fields of joy!

14/02/99