"This Is What I Said to You"

I am reconciled
I live in a breathless state
I am convinced
that I know nothing.
We all remember what truth is,
it's nothing but sacrifice,
it's a remembrance
it's certainty
when you can never leave me
you will forever stay.
It's my life through someone else's binoculars,
feeling for a tarantula in the rain, the rain,
my own little rainstorm.
You never remembered me anyway.
It was seldom a last glance
you frightened me so
in another world of strangers
I never have any luck.
Maybe we see too much.
If only the prize would be waiting for me,
it feels like home.
It feels like someone's coming up the stairs.
I know you never told me so,
all the dreams you cherished
and all the years past are behind us,
you told me so.
Night is coming;
close the curtains.