The Nothingness

When I was admitted to the psychiatric ward I thought that I would be surrounded by everyone suffering from the same sickness”shallow as it may sound I wanted comfort in hoping that I would be surrounded by those who understood the overwhelming pain that those around me failed to.
Unfortunately there was only one girl who suffers from depression, the rest are diagnosed with other psychiatric related disease. I questioned her insanity, because she seemed so normal, so mundane”and I have come so far that to me, depression seems like such a profound sickness that requires a philosophical understanding. So I thought to myself; how can someone who looked so normal, who doesn't keep a journal, who seemed so ordinary be depressed?
Her name is Tida, and everyone here makes fun of her because she eats all the time, which makes her chubby. They even gave her a nickname after some Japanese cartoon Doremon and she would always giggle when someone call her by her nickname.
Tida was one of the few girls who was always asleep for some weird reason, it was something I was never able to do but I never knew if it was because of her medication or if it was because she was just the sort of person who sleeps all the time.
So one night I decided to sleep early because there wasn't anything good on TV, I lay on my bed and stared at the ceiling waiting until I would fall asleep. Then Tida walked in, for some reason I decided to watch her. Then I noticed, her towel”her Doremon towel and I thought”a girl that is willing to poke fun at her self must be more than simply ordinary, I began to think that perhaps I was wrong. She didn't sleep right away. But she just sat on the edge of her bed and stared at nothing.

"I questioned her insanity but when I saw her staring at the nothingness, I knew she was insane and so was I.