To Lovely lumps with love, giza

Solitude and Isolation
Miles between
Pottering about and aching loneliness
Too anxious to see you
Longing for contact
Longing for you
desperate.

Break down my doors
Travel the miles to me
Please.
I can't do it
I can't say when,
I panic, tire,
get lost in the mire -
Too early
Too late
What to do
What to fit in
Nothing and too much
Aghhh!
So I hide
I cancel
I withdraw
When what I need
Is your light
A hug
Ten minutes, hours
No pressure
Your reality
Our difference

Take me out of myself
Help me smile with you
Drive me home
- sure I have soya milk in the fridge
Or sit in my studio
Turn on the radio
Drink a beer with me

Your love
Gentle, kind, warm
Grounds me
Brings me peace
To feel accepted by you
Becomes accepted by me
"You're just human, love"
You say.
Ah! comfort! That means I'm like you.
And it's not me it's us -

Getting on the loony bus
Drinking from the same cup
Crying with the curtains shut
Dreaming all our Sundays up
Dirty knickers
Heart shaped stickers

You accept me as I am
We're not the same but equal
Who isn't mental?

So I can hold your hand
And together we can skip
Christmas markets, "mulled wind"
Lean my bicycle on your hip
Put my biscuits in the bin
Text me when you're home
I know I'm not alone
Now.
You cow! xx