Annihilate

Annihilate (27th February, 2009, 10.51pm)

Peel back the layers and you will find
an emptiness that grows and throbs
within my heart, obliterates my whole
and desecrates my shattered mind;

unwrap the tourniquet that tightly
binds the elements that make me
almost human; resent not my tortured
soul as it consumes you nightly;

unwind the threads of sanity;
separate my melody to
single notes, rearrange my symphony
into tunefulness, and play me;

feel your way like Persephone
as you go down into the dark;
leave a line out, a space I can write on
in the aftermath, when I’m free;

seal the door with your goodbye moves,
bittersweet with indifference
in the daylight; your utterances lie
as your eyes overflow with truths;

flip the coin with its matching sides;
you annihilate me while I
try to love you, carving memories where
I’m most exposed. Where is my pride?

Jennifer Pickup