Sestina For A Broken Lover

So then, it’s dead, all gone from me
No longer do I see you there
No longer will I need you,
The tide strides over and
Autumn hangs its head,
Hollow I leave you breathless

Happy to know you can be breathless
Your scent here no more, away from me
The night air gathers and swirls through my head
As ghostly you stand there,
As I take liquor, staring, and
Walling your memory in, intending to forget you.

But still you linger, captured as you
Are, trapped within the high walls breathless,
But nightly I drink my fill and
Nightly you still await me,
As over and over I stare at you there
As the fever pitch screams rhapsodies through my head.

I tilt my mind one morning, and my head
Seems clearer, the walls vacant of you,
Vanished it seems, no longer there,
I stumbled back inside, breathless,
Wandering am I safe with you gone from me,
Should I leave you like this, and

Should you have left me? And
Is this the solution, to rid the pain from my head?
What am I to do, being solitary, me?
Facing it alone, facing it without you,
Even the hurt was worth it, to be breathless,
To come in from the dull day to see your spectre standing there.

Though now, I am calmer, and there
Is no other route I would go down, and
It has been months since I was breathless,
Barely do I remember your beauteous head,
Nor the crowning glory of living with you,
And the silence of winter has sobered me.

Now I turn my thoughts away from me,
And though I can envisage my happy self there,
Forever will part of me yearn for you.