Questionnaire

How do you feel when you see him?
It’s like the world comes alive and the sky get’s bluer.
It’s like the dead world shrinks to be replaced by something newer.
It’s like time stops dead in the few moments he’s around.
It’s like my head’s in the clouds and my feet are off the ground.

How do you feel when you think of him?
I feel as if my heart retracts and blood flows the other way.
I feel as if my veins get clearer with every passing day.
I feel as if the truth is now more painful than the feeling.
I feel like hurting myself to stop my mind from drifting freely.

How do you feel when you talk to him?
There are no words I feel are good enough to say out loud.
There are no empty sentiments to let my feelings out.
There are no equal mutual feelings I can try clinging on to.
There are so many things I want to do, but I know he doesn’t want to.

How do you feel when you are with him?
What I feel is that the distance between our skin cannot be closed.
I’d tell him everything I feel if I wasn’t sure he’d oppose.
What I feel is that I’m so afraid, my feelings I can’t deny.
But still I know I’m lucky just to have him in my life.
I don’t feel sorry anymore, I see a light within the dim.
But the rest of the time, it hurts to know that I can never have him.