hearts that bleed - or - does anyone care?

a sadness grips my heart tight fisted,
locked in my eyes a fear deep and twisted,
never before have i felt so unwhole,
not the spark of a smile can i muster or cojole,
my insides feel all knotted and dead,
the thoughts i once had hang by merely a thread,
as i reach out cry out shout out to you,
you retract the happiness and love i once knew,

now, i'm alone in this world i have made,
set aside from loves light to sit in the shade,
i take it back, i scream from the top of my voice,
no one can hear me, seems alone "was" my choice,
i put my hand out for you in a moment of unaware,
pulling back empty hand realising your not there,
i feel fine, i feel great, i dont need your pity,
its just that, inside, my heart feels incredibly shitty.