Engulfed

My emotions engulf me

Like Jonah’s whale

Opens their mouth

Swallows me whole

I am in darkness

Devoid of all landmarks

I know not here I move

No Guide have I in this place

Only time is my friend

For the darkness only shows me

More of the same

No light to guide me home

No life giving water

To quench my thirst for a direction

For I am lost in my own psyche

A dark pebble in a bottomless pool

Unknowing

All feeling

Unabated

Words echo through the unseen caverns

Reverberate

Resonate

Retaliate

I stand alone with myself

And am afraid

Where is my guide?

My compass?

This is a new country

For which I do not know the language

Have never been prepared for

The ground quakes below me

The sand shifts

I am unstable

Ungrounded

Unguided

Unknowing

An infant in the throw of birth

Restricted and suffocated in the birth canal

Struck by my own inability to let go

Let God

Let anything be in charge apart from me

But to leave this place

Would mean returning

To a place of sameness

Of never being

A lack of

So I stay

Awaiting a regurgitation

Aggravated by my awakening soul

And my acceptance of the inevitable

Stepping into me