Use Someone

If I used someone
I don't know
As I don't even
Think like that
Treat how you
Want be treated
Though told
The greatest lie
Everyday
Dieing inside
I said what
I needed to say
Words cant describe
The feeling
At the end of this road
Did I lie
Should I lie
To myself
Knock down this bridge
To be alone
Part says go forward
Over the edge
Other half
Looking behind
Watching you leave
Like a replay
Of a certainty
If only
Someone
Could see
Past the mess
Or even ask
What it is
Tears running
Like a waterfall
Though they inside
Could I be a player
Give up on my heart
Choose to forget
Is it that easy
Pay less attention
No second glance
That makes me ill
As that is wrong
I am stupid maybe
A fool
Though
What will I be
Missing out on
I don't keep
notches on my bed post
or A black diary
Though I never forget
If I wake
It be with same eyes
I awake too
One heart
Beating against mine
Parachute or not
One last breath
From one I breathe
Will be enough
A laugh I love
Record it
Play it on replay
When alone
Make my own words
To that song
I am
Far from a player
Though I do
Say a prayer
From time to time
No believer
Though when all else
Is been and done
Don't want to
Be on top
Of the world
Scream till I am done
Only held
In that perfect place
In between arms
That are around me
Break me
Shake me
Hurt me
Leave me
Though
I will be standing
In the rain
Sky will fall
Maybe I will
Get another chance
After I hit the floor
I may not
Be able do this
Or do that
Though I
Will always be me
And know how
To love for real