waning affection

perhaps it was the amount of time
that you waited to reciprocate,
perhaps you spent too long
thinking about it,
perhaps you had other things on the
table,
perhaps you found yourself looking
round for other options at the same
time,
perhaps your eyes were discombobulated
(rolling backwards in your head),
perhaps you thought them too young or
perhaps you thought them too old,
perhaps they were too wealthy &
you figured they wouldn’t
appreciate you or
perhaps they were flat broke &
you didn’t feel like shelling out the
dough,
perhaps you though them ugly,
perhaps their beauty intimidated,
perhaps they lived too close,
perhaps too far away,
perhaps they came with too much baggage,
perhaps they seemed cold &
you couldn’t explain why,
perhaps they were just perfect &
that’s why you felt it would never work,
perhaps you have a pattern of enlisting the
company of jerks,
perhaps you wanted their attention &
you were just too shy or stubborn to show it,
because now that they have lost interest in you,
you wish that you had
shown it.