enslaved

at first, i thought i was a writer
but the more i wrote, the more
my words enslaved me.

i am
i am not a slave
to my mind or thoughts

i am
i am not a slave
to myself, to my hate
or my emotions

i am, i am not,
not a, not it, not this

pushing
trying, and
eventually dying

all while saying:
i am, i am not, a slave
to myself, my words, my thoughts
my emotions. not a, not it, not this.