Cant take it No more

As morning breaks
the sun blinds my eyes
I awake to find I am alone
find the energy to rise
from my lonely place
look at my phone
nothing
down the stairs I wonder
every step makes a squeek
finally at the bottom
look around
only to find a silent house
as I look
I can feel
that every room has a little presence of you
so I will close all the doors
stand in the hall way
lifeless and helpless
I remember
my world has crashed down
I cant take no more
tears running now
like a broken tap
I am no Villain
though why do I feel so bad
my lips mumbling
my teeth tightening together
as I fall against this wall
it hits me
I have lost it all
I cant stand any more
my legs weak
my nose snuffling
my jaw tightening
I know the sun is shining
though it not shining on me
I think a cloud is passing by
for this hall is so dark now
as i sit here with tears running down my cheeks
my whole body weak
no helicopter coming to save me
no rescue divers
no medical team could save me
I look to the sky though only a ceiling
I prey this one time
to let me go when I close my eyes
as I cant make up lies to tell myself
I am so tired now
yet no control over my body
my heart is failing
room seems smaller
the pain getting stronger
my mind falling to pieces
I try and reach for my phone
to call you
or text you
I don't know what I would say
but I need you
as you always said no matter how far
though you are afar
your up there now
so I plead
take me now
in this dark place
I am trying to scream
yet my mouth is so tight
my eyes stinging
I cant open them
I am trying
though I am drowning
in my own tears
blood leaking from my mouth
down my front
I cant move my mouth
I will let this blood flow
maybe I might go
for I am dieing
I wish it would hurry
I will have to suffer more
I just want to be free
so tired now
I cant even think now
cant speak
cant see
my bones so weak
my muscles so tight
I feel like i am bleeding inside
my heart melting slowly
my insides squashing together
these walls getting closer I swear
images flashing past my eyes
coughing on my blood now
my lungs filling
I cant raise my arms to wipe my face
my breathing slowing
is this it
am I nearly there
a place away from here
maybe to where you are
I hope so
are you watching this
if you are
take me please
I cant take this