Take me with you

As morning breaks
the sun blinds my eyes
i awake to find im alone
find the energy to rise
from my lonely place
look at my phone
... nothing ..
down the stairs i wonder
every step makes a squeek
finally at the bottom
look around
only to find a silent house
as i look
i can feel
that every room has a little presence of you
so ill close all the doors
stand in the hall way
lifeless and helpless
i remember
my world has crashed down
i cant take no more
tears running now
like a broken tap
im no villian
though why do i feel so bad
my lips mumbling
my teeth clambing together
as i fall against this wall
it hits me i have lost it all
i cant stand any more
my legs weak
my nose snuffling
my jaw tightening
i know the sun is shining
though it not shining on me
i think a cloud is passing by
for this hall is so dark now
as i sit here with tears running down my cheeks
my whole body weak
no helicopter coming to save me
no rescue divers
no medical team could save me
i look to the sky though only a cieling
i prey this one time
to let me go when i close my eyes
as i cant make up lies to tell myself
im so tired now
yet no control over my body
my heart is failing
room seems smaller
the pain getting stronger
my mind falling to pieces
i try and reach for my phone
to call you
or text you
i dont know what i would say
but i need you
as you always said no matter how far
though you are afar
your up there now
so i plead
take me now
in this dark place
im trying to scream
yet my mouth is so tight
my eyes stinging
i cant open them
im trying
though im drowning in my own tears
blood leaking from my mouth down my front
i cant move my mouth
ill let this blood flow
and maybe i might go
for im dieng
i wish it would hurry
ill have to suffer more
i just want to be free
so tired now
i cant even think now
cant speak
cant see
my bones so weak
my muscles so tight
i feel like im bleeding inside
my heart melting slowly
my insides squashing together
these walls getting closer i swear
images flashing past my eyes
coughing on my blood now
my lungs filling
i cant raise my arms to wipe my face
my breathing slowing
is this it
am i nearly there
a place away from here
maybe to where you are
i hope so
are you watching this
if you are
take me please
i cant take this
anymore ...