Hide the Pain

The pain is uncertain, but definitely there.
I know it hurts, but I can't pin-point where.
My heart bleeds, and yet, my veins pour tears.
Life without you goes so slow.
Days seem like years.

I won't show it.

I'm too strong.

"Oh my God, I've been holding it in too long!"

I crack a joke and fake a smile.

"It's okay, I can hide it still...
At least for a little while."

I'm doing good.
I don't think anyone can see.

I hold it in until I'm alone, where my hurt can run free.
I want so much to be weak.
I want so desperately to cry.
I'll keep it to myself, but I think YOU know I'm living a lie.

I know somewhere deep inside, you still care.
You can't really be happy without me there.
You're my true love, my soul-mate, and my very best friend.
After all we've been through, is this really where it
ends?