I never cry

Tears are nothing
Drops of salt in a sea of melancholy
I have never been hard hearted
I just cannot cry
I let it build inside me
Like water behind a dam
Gnawing away at my insides
Making me sick with sadness
I wait
For weeks
Upon weeks
Sitting
Looking and looking and looking
At nothing
A deep hollow in my belly
But then something
Just a small something
Draws the thing out like a dog to a bone
And the long awaited tears spill,
Unwanted
Down my face
Scalding
Burning at my flesh
Until I'm weeping
For the world
No, I don't cry
I scream
Silently
In my head