mistake(continuation)

it's so crucial and so painfull,
But the moon still gives it's light,
leading me to nothing....
untill the downfall makes my silhoette out of sight...

My knife hunts the guilt inside my souless hands,
Bloodstains reminisce me the failure to where i stand,
the moment i saw her makes me think that she's a whore,
the hate overcome that night where love amidst abhor...

i still recall the night before i killed her.
her smile cares her inocence with her lover,
it's false to believe that we're a day younger.
the day her heavenly words i'm afraid i can't decipher..

the cunning blade shutters her body,
this shining knife made her run into their balcony,
Bloodstains scattered thru the walls and ceiling,
now shes not my everything,
she turned into a deceiving goddess for me who means nothing..

fainted screams echoes thru the house,
the lighted lightd now turn into darkness,
where she lay down with her open throat,
her eyes was bleeding brought by the decayed love with overgrowth loathe..

the gashing wounds respects my vanity,
her pure white eyes shows my frailty,
the dreadfull night always hunts me with her soul remorsefully brave.
the last day of autumn now turns to cold deep grave...

my mind was fullfilled by hysteria,
her cytherhean beauty looks pale and distorted,
in death she would see the happiness,
happines that real life refuse to give..

i ran as fast as i can, crying..
the blade was still in my hand with blood soaking,
it steals the taught of euphoric,
shows myself.. reveals like im worst as misanthropic...

Letting go was so much for me to keep,
i love her so much and still loving her forever,
while im running, i noticed the autumn's last leaf,
holding for so long eventhough it can't hold on any longer....

to be continued...