Begging for a dx part 2 (tw: mental health)

By Aspiringwtr

Sat, 09 Feb 2019
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isnt this what i wanted?
isnt it what i begged for?

a diagnosis!
a brain condition!
a failure of genetics!

an excuse

and now i have it
but it doesn't matter
because it's still just me
my life
my actions
my consequences

this isn't my saving grace
keeping me from future mistakes
or an eraser on a whiteboard
presenting me with a clean slate

walking into the pharmacy
this is not a cure
but it is a step
i'm willing to take
because i deserve the life i was promised
and someday
i'll have it

thank god i'm like this

Certificate 18
Poem
Drama

Comments

Submitted by Tom Brown on

Beautiful "walking into the pharmacy ... thank god i'm like this".

It seems these problems you have everywhere they are universal to the times and to humanity.

(Brittany, I was just wondering what "dx" and ":tw" means? Sorry sometimes I'm a bit slow with this computer jargon and that.)

Cheers! Tom Brown

 

Submitted by Aspiringwtr on

Aw thanks :)

Dx is shorthand for diagnosis. Rx is for prescriptions and of course, a "fix" is common slang for drugs. I really liked the concept of keeping it within that same "x" terminology but I may need to change it so it's not confusing. Thanks again for the comment!

Tw is for trigger warning. I'm still figuring out which of my words impact someone so I'm trying to be cautious about which poems may negatively impact someone.

Aspiringwtr