Pre-Birth and Then?

Pre-Birth and Then.

The year nineteen twenty-nine I was conceived by two people that already had given birth to five children. I ask myself was there no means of birth control in those far off days. Nine months in a small cage called the womb. I heard the cries of pain at my wanting to see the light of day at my birth. The male partner out of work the female overworked with the five previous children and now me to contend with.

This could not work out six children with a wife and no income. The next move six children placed in the care of the Medway Children’s homes. Who was to blame for this serious predicament the Government, the local council or was it the necessity to send eighty million pounds a year to keep the British Army in India, which was part of the Empire? I have often asked myself this question. Was it necessary to have an army in India or in any other country of this world?

The female died from tuberculosis and the male side of the family, aunts and uncles came to the Homes and took the four oldest children and gave them a home in their own homes, My brother and I were left in the not so tender mercies of the strictly run orphanage. I ask again was it necessary for the male and female to have sexual relations without thinking about the consequences for the offspring of this relationship?

Was I the next on the list for reincarnation was this the reason for the consummated marriage of my parents? I do not know but someone owes me many answers to my questions. One hears of so many deaths at childbirth why was I kept alive in such miserable circumstances. Have you an answer? I think not. Did you have a happy childhood? Was your birthday celebrated each year? Mine was not that is not until I married. Is it I ask myself the reason I became the selfish person that I am?

I have had my happy moments and I am not blaming my parents although it might seem that I am. I blame the countries government. Great Britain was and is very rich, was it necessary to throw so much good money trying to keep up the Empire and to leave families so destitute that poorness was at home all over the towns and cities of Great Britain. How is it today I ask myself are there so many out of work families that need financial help?

This is not a plea for money or anything in the way of material goods. Just an answer to all of the many questions that I will carry with me to the end of my days is there anyone that can give me these answers, I think not.