Numb

Crashing down
Smashing in
Darkness booms
Silent and still
What you did
I don't quite know
You opened my heart
But it opened too far
It split at the seams
And as I sew
I see what you've done
My beloved foe
I loved you
Then hated
Then loved again
You'd think now that i'd hate you
Or want to be friends
But no, I know now,
What you've truly done
You covered my eyes
My ears
My senses
And cut me open so wide
That all that was left was a gash
A big gash
In myself
I sewed it up
I cleaned and healed it
But now that cut is healed
It won't ever really open
You triggered a reaction
Now the world is different
You might want to care
But now I just don't
I want you to know
That, give in, I won't
I don't want lust
I don't want hope
Well not with you
Because you're just a being
Just another one
Out of the other billions
You just make up the swarm
And you don't make me feel
Hate
Love
Hurt
Misery
Emptiness
Longing
Want
None of these
But don't worry
There is one thing
When I look into your eyes
I am

numb.