If I could

If I could 

I would turn off the tap 

And my love would

Dry up.

If I could

I would not walk by our special places

And examine them for evidence that you

Were there.

If I could 

I would be impervious to your touch

And my only shivers would be from

The cold.

If I could

I would walk away from you 

And never look back, and

Never wonder.

If I could

I would not try to accidentally bump into you

So you can see how happy I am, when

I'm not.

If I could

I would not care to yearn for your kiss

And your lips would mean nothing 

To me.

If I could

I would laugh at the urgency in your eyes

And tell you you're crazy whilst inside

I weep.

If I could

I would be your friend once more

And we would talk for hours like we

Used to.

If I could

I would stop dreaming of an us

That will never

Exist.

If I could,

I would.