The loss of mother blackness

The loss of mother blackness

Do you know where you are now little one?
Cold, black, wet weight is all you have,
Your first time alone, for all time.

Shades of black are worlds apart
when black is all you've seen.
One a mothers kiss, one this new abyss.

What memories have you brought?
Feelings of mass and heat?
Of siblings pushing past? Too slow, and so, you fast.

Mother blackness, tried her best
drank limp by the throng she picked you out
She tried, you died, she cried

One more day is all she wanted for you
She nosed you in my pillow and looked at me with hope
I knew your fight was lost, big litters have their cost

You never saw her face
Or yours, reflected in those sad and loving eyes
The others saw first light the day you lost your fight

I buried you today
I wore a Darwinian chill that wouldn't fit even when I shrugged
Black, shovelled from above. As black as mother's love.