Not

I'm not in love
with you
or this
this is just infatuation
I have decided
this is not love

It's just that
last night
when you pushed me away
and said those careless sudden words
that left me in pieces
I curled up away from you
and realised
I am not in love
I cannot love you
but you can hurt me
beyond anything
or anyone ever before

and i am not in love
with someone who can
leave me in pieces
so easily
with some word
that he will take back
the minute he says it
and apologise
"i didnt mean it"
you say and smile
as if
i can forgive
and forget
i would if i loved you
but i don't and i can't
i dont want to be in love with you
i was fine on my own