Tralalalalaaaa

I feel like Cher in that movie "Mermaids" where she has that weird ass hat on her head singing
"You're not listening to a word I say, if you wanna know if he loves you so, it's in his kiss!"
"That's where it is!" yell the backup singers.

Shoopeedoopeedoooo.

First things first: he's a good kisser.

Second: i'm freaking out.

If you knew me at all, you would probably sigh and roll your eyes, because that's just typical of me to take something sweet and simple and overdramatise it.

In many ways, I think I've met my match, because he tends to overthink things too. yay! finally i'm not the only paranoid obsessive idiot in a relationship!

Why am I freaking out?

1. Things are moving too fast. i kissed him. he kissed me. now i think he thinks we're together but i dont think i think i'm ready for it yet. need some time to get to know him, etc., etc. etc., commitment phobe getting cold feet.

2. He tells me he didnt want to get involved with me because he's working on leaving the country and he didnt think it was fair to get me into something if he was leaving.... of course my heart falls to my feet because i'm not ready for one of those Jack-Rose titanic moments, i've barely finished kissing the guy.... then he tells me he's planning on leaving in september which is waaaaaaaaayyyyyyy far far far far ahead, far too far ahead to even be thinking about it.

So I laugh in relief....
Thinking it's cute of him to think that we will still be together by september.
Then I start thinking that he thinks we will still be together by september.
And I start freaking out.

About the fact that now whatever this is has some kind of a deadline on it, and a specific time period, which takes out all the fun and mystery of the game.

Damn.

Cue major freaking out.

When all the girl should do is take a chill pill and enjoy the moment and the kiss and the boy.