HangOver Of Pain

I struggle through everyday what do you do? I think I'm going insane! Should I push forward I ask myself all the time does anyone really want me here I question every year Do I really matter I ask as I once again shatter what's the point why do I try why do I cry and have pain inside wake up dear you aren't seeing it clear grab my hand as we slip away wait a second moms begging me to stay what is there to say holding on once again no joints do I smoke I only drink coke never ever try the real drugs but I need a hug when I overdose why do I feel so high then feel so low where should I go who am I why do I even try what corner am I to turn this time who am I to loose what friends am I to choose see that girl on the ground never did booze but is having a hangover a hangover of pain I walk on by with a sigh I'd hold her and let her cry if I wasn't so shy blood on my wrist mom got pissed I wanna die wanna say goodbye but for some reason I'm here alive ready to take another dive into the tries never to realize the point I'm the victim of darkness in the background music is my beloved sound gotta get up and dance take another chance pick myself up once again pushing on can't believe another loved one is gone and I treated them so wrong I'm having a hangover of pain it last so long