Recovery

A permanent solution may not be what I need
maybe something to alter my consciousness so my mind can finally be freed,
I've heard great things about hallucinogenics but that's totally not me.
I'll drown my cerebrum with ethanol so memories are erased
but it'll impact my relationships and my stomach'll ache for days.
Intoxication could temporarily alter the way I think;
the illusion of a false reality accessed only via drink.

A sober mind created these thoughts so a sober mind can defeat it.
But, let's take a moment, what is a thought anyway?
It's just a bunch of neurones connected and arranged in a particular way
yet significant enough to alter the response to the phrase, "how's your day?"
So when people say it's all in my head then they're totally correct,
it's the over-complication of occurrences that was making me upset.
Things that happened in the past should not affect the present,
a wave of depression is a ghostly presence;
some may laugh but for those who believe it's so fucking real.

Dealing with your issues is like riding a bike that has a puncture,
you make all the same moves but operate under a different structure.
But now that I accept myself and have mechanisms to cope
I'm penning words for people so then those people have hope.

When you're so low remember there will always be another high
and the self-hatred inside is just over-processing of information by your mind.
And the fact that you're so low signifies that there were once better times
and it's true that what goes around, comes around so please, just hold on tonight.