its all i know

if only i had known sooner that
falling apart was all that i had to do
going crazy was all i needed
to gain some inspiration
all of a sudden,words are rushing to me
if i'm losing myself in the balance
you don't see it
look right through me
ignore it,take my lead

nobody need know,i'm losing my grip on reality
everyone who's seen me trip before
i won't tell,i won't show
theres really no need for anyone to know

i've become too childish,or its how i appear
making up for what i lost
and maybe it helps to hide my fear?
because it seems everytime i slip
i act like a fool,won't let anyone near

i believe that i am falling
not just because i'm allowing myself to...
but,if i'm completely honest
its the only thing i'm really confident
i know how to do
i'm not especially social
people scare me too much
and i worry maybe they see in my eyes
that my feelings are such.