Aunty Inge

The pain of life
Dripdrip dripping
Down the drain
Draining away time
Of those I love
Of those I don't see,
Rushing demands
Clouding true values
World system separating,
Economics,
time spent
Solitary

Death
Forever on my mind,
What if What if..
Nay, certainty sadness,
Stolen moments all too few
Irritability, exhaustion, animal needs
limiting
Oh, what matter hedonism avoidance?
- momentary appreciation - all flippantry;
Contact
Love
Pain,
I need you,
I never see you,
i'm Sick with Nerves,
Hungry for Comfort,
Willing to face dis comfort
To leave you -
Sad again,
Waiting fearfully
For sad news,
My heart tears in preparation,
My roots strewn;
You are of my life
God mother.
So here I sit on the train
Tears - sad,
Biding time
Hoping the sun shine
Lasts.

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It was a perfect day
And my heart
Predictably
Broke.

The photos you gave me,
The pictures we took,
Times captured and lost.
Your son cried,
I was moved.
"So as not to prolong the pain"
you left
And we waved
Blew kisses, both arms;
I should have let you pay for lunch
I can see that now
My peasants way,
Your shoulder pads,
The sadness in my eyes
You saw
and felt for me,
Ties stronger than blood,
Earth.

Quaint and wise
German phrases
for each occasion -
something
...happiness in making plans real not just
talking
ideas.

I will see you again
In this fragile plane,
never enough
for perpetually yearning childhoods heart
But what aching joy
in half measures
complacent scene free

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Tuesday
I could go and see a film
Or just wait for the good times to come.