A Boon, I Ask For

A Boon, I Ask For

P K Routray

My early days’ memory

listening to many a story

on God and His power,

teachings from scripture

propitiation and prayer

instilled within me a conception

on God,  the father of this creation.

But with seventy years’ experiences and experimentations

to ninety percent theistic and ten percent atheistic have turned my perceptions.

Once an idea struck me, of God to take an examination

to remove this late developed ten percent atheistic perception

Meditated, contemplated, propitiated I on Him with austerity

to please God and get Him to grant me a boon and prove His authority.

So that with conviction I can be a preacher to remove atheistic nuisance,

and at the final judgment, Jesus will plead for my Heaven ward movement.

To my awe and surprise God graced me with His benign presence

and offered me, He a boon being satisfied by my penance.

Instantly asked I to become a monarch with a gigantic kingdom.

Expressed God “Uneasy lies the head that wears a crown, says the age old wisdom.”

To my subsequent prayer for a treasury full of wealth

“Someone, may be your enemy, will be the owner of them after your death”

changing my decisions second time on His explanations I asked for immortality

“With ill health, with old age, no friends, no relatives to live, life will be dull, drab and void of beauty”.

Getting puzzled and convinced by His logic, so clear and so true

Asked I “Bless me God with whatever you think best for me, ultimately I surrender to you.”

My earthly wisdom enlightened by divine logic prompted me for this submission

Happenings forced contrary to His plan disturb the symphony of creation.

In all these thoughts, wisdom and logic my atheism got its burial

behind every atheism lies also His power for man’s survival.