White Snow seduction!!

Some may say my life was decadence
Long before I did,
But was I wrong to grasp for
Even a mynute dash of hope,
Or was I just too blind to see, what was
There leaping out in front of me.

I cannot answer the 'why are you doing this' questions,right now from people that have not known this excruciating Pain thats been dealt me,
But for a long time now Its all iv grown to know.

But when I try to answer others and myself
All i can say is how i feel,and hard as it may be,
To watch him throw away is life on illicit drugs
I cannot help loving him and remembering
Way back when i use to bounce him on my knee.
Those are the happy times i cherrish,
Not the dark, angry days that have scared our home,Making me feel useless, isolated and alone.

But when you have nurtured a life in to this world
Is it really up to us when we help or refuse!
Dont get me wrong, there is a limit this mothers
Love will go.

But for now he as my hand of support,
Hopefully which will lead us to a happier times,
But if nothing else comes of his life
We both knew he wasn't alone
Through is darkest hell.