I found an angel in you

I found an angel in you

 

Sentiments are hard to describe sometimes

Like trying to find the right words to put the world to rights

 

We talk I listen we talk you share your heart

 

I thought it was only mine that was missing

And everyone could see

this big black hole in my chest

But when you shared your pain,

I thought I was looking in a mirror

A gaping wound weeping back at me

 

Time has a way of rearranging things

Like patterns of leaves on a path

blowing in the autumn winds

The winds of change have absolutely battered me

I really couldn’t take any more

 

I’m psychotic but only when I’m unbearably anxious

My consultant says there’s no such condition

Schizophrenia is the way forward

 

I’m conscious that I have no power

Power to fight my corner and prove myself right

Still I beat the air like a shadow boxer

But my opponent is the whole damn establishment

 

So I was looking for some support

A confidant an angel if you will

I stopped believing in miracles long ago

I stopped dreaming I could have any peace

Except for when I finally lay my life down

 

Then you came and you changed all that

You heard me, consoled me, laughed with me

And at times we’d cry…

we shared moment so rare in that brief

Space of time, I felt, you felt,

a kindred spirit resonate

From your heart to the beat of mine

 

So I’m thankful for your friendship

and I’m thankful for your time

Precious moments we share

are of a love divine

 

Believe me Sharon I do not know what

I would have done if I hadn’t of stumbled across you

On that web site for star crossed lovers

Soul mates, the abandoned and even helpless fools

 

I was at the end of a rope

hanging over my bedroom balcony

Doubts and crucial decisions plagued my confused mind

I’d lost all self-belief, integrity and all my hope.

I’d lost the will to carry on the fight.

 

 

 

 

 

Slowly I was killing myself

With 20 cups of coffee a day

2 pouches of Tabaco, come what may

No fresh air, no job, four walls,

shopping at Tesco’s at am half past 3

nothing in my shopping basket

but helpless despair

nothing in my life except

bills, meds and polluted scandalized air

 

Then I found you as I’d looked

for an angel absolutely everywhere

Women would come, women would go

I lost All hope of finding you many moons ago

I was just going through

the motions of trying to find

The one…someone to share

life’s ups and downs

Someone to care for,

Love, cherish

Someone to hold

 

Is there any understanding anywhere?

I search in all the wrong places

An outcast left out in the cold

Anybody need a friend?

Someone who will be with you

Through thick and thin

Until the bitter end

 

 

But now I’ve found you

I’m not gonna let you go

I’m gonna treat you like you

treat me, as angel unaware

We were strangers, passing ships

on torrential seas in the dead of night

On collision course with loneliness

crying into the pillow

on rainy desolate nights

 

I asked you if you prayed

you said

“yes.

the sheep and birds listen to me…”

I thought that was a metaphor for God and Jesus

but you said I have no one to talk to

Just Mother Nature

birds and sheep

I laughed,

it felt good,

it had been such a long time

 

 

You moved from the steel

of the big bad city in the busy affluent south

your lovely children by your side

settled in a valley in the cobbled stoned north

between two mountains ranges so high

Even birds found it hard to climb

 

 

 

You’ve been through trouble

Anguish, strife the lot…

Yet you have a sensitivity and

strength so rare it’s already rubbed off on me

 

So thank you my adorable angel you’re

the bright and morning star

I love you with agape love

straight from the creator’s heart

 

Believe me when I tell you

You’re all I have in in this world

I cherish you like the flowers that grow

In the wild grass on those mountain slopes

 

My angel, my angel, my angel

Eye has not seen and ear has not heard

The magic, the electric between you and I

I hear your voice and look at your picture

And sparks do surely fly…

 

So when you look into the mirror of that lake

Which runs at the end of your path

outside of your back door

Remember the angel looking back at you

Is the one I’ve always longed for

Sentiments are hard to describe sometimes

Like trying to find the right words to put the world to rights

But now I have you my very own angel by my side

God told me everything's now gonna be just fine.