The moment I knew

 

 

The sun bursts from beyond unkempt clouds

Like a precious jewel it shines, each ray

A stairway to the pearly gates.

The air is thick heavy cloud formation

Grey, black, grimacing

Threatening to throw down a torrent.

 

The trees are barren, spars

Winter has left its footprint

A bud on a branch, shows emerald green,

The first signs of spring

New birth.

 

Children’s voices echo outside from the estate

As they rehearse adulthood,

A multicultural mix of colours

A rainbow of dialects permeates the walls

The sounds of tea time jazz

Plays on the radio.

My apartment

The centre of the universal

 

The sun plates my forehead and I see my reflection

Looking intently back at me on the laptop screen

I pause for a moment look around and measure

The trophies of my yester years.

 

Wow, I’ve made it through another year

One year on and ever wiser is the shout back

From heaven’s throne

This year feels uniquely different

I’ve turned a corner from despair to hope

Life is good, I’m drinking it in

My mood  upbeat

Positivity bleeds through my pours

 

Doesn’t really matter what the weather outside is

Doesn’t matter that I don’t have close friends

In a town where talk is cheap and friends come with

An expirer date. Doesn’t matter that the only knock

On the door is the postman delivering me junk mail

My email box full of strange names and sex stuff

 

I’ve broken through, through the barriers that limited me

A person in my own right

My head is bursting through a glass ceiling 

Hostile clouds don’t affect me

I see heaven’s gate surrounded by angels

And I’m liking this place.

Life is larger, bigger all the superlatives, better brighter

 

Only I determine whether I stand or fall.

No more pacing up and down rooms

Threatening to punch holes in walls.

No more midnight panics or paranoia

No more fatal mistakes or living disorderedly

 

My home feels comfortable,

Lived in like the birthday suit I wear

I like this feeling and feel the need to share…

My head is in a good place

Middle aged? No negatives here

No regrets or ideas to surrender

Just giving the creator

Thanks for bringing me through.

 

Able to know who I am

My purpose on this earth.

Able to see a future

Breaking through skies

Hostile by nature

I see virtue being birthed.