E journal 7/22

Dear journal,


I was just thinking that this journal is partly inspired by
Robinson Crusoe and other classic literature that use a journal as a
trope. I view my life as a sort of adventure and I want some kind of
record.
Yesterday, I made a difficult decision. I wanted my schizophrenic
brother to go to a college class he'd signed up for. I called right
before the class to make sure he was going and he was at home. He
didn't have any gas and didn't want to go. I talked him into going,
though I left the decision up to him, and I went and took him to class.
The thing was that my car was running on empty and I had no money. So
it was a dangerous ride. It was against my conservative nature to do
this but I feel that it was heroic. It was driven by a will to succeed
and help my family survive. I was willing to go out on a limb. I'm
proud of myself for doing it. But I feel it was the wrong decision. I
hope in the future, I will be far more cautious.
My Mom is taking me up to a Portland Micro-Brew fest. Also, we're
going to see "Lewis and Clark" at the OMNI-MAX theatre, which is a
fairly sophisticated 3-D dome theatre. Incidentally, I've decided to
quit drinking and smoking pot. This brew fest will be the last drinking
I'll do. I know I've tried to quit before and failed. But this time, it
comes so much as a natural instinct. It's just where I'm at. I've been
getting up at six and jogging in the morning. I view my life as a war
campaign and I intend to win.