Journal 12/28/04

Today has been a good day overall. It started with a surprisingly
mild hangover. The day got better from there. Waiting for the library
to open, I met a nice girl named Sophie. Her e-mail address is
sagephire@ something and I thought that was pretty cool. Additionally,
she plays a few instruments: guitar, drums and violin. I could use her
in this musical project I'm planning. I get a primitive home recording
studio for Christmas!
And I recorded a couple really cool songs today and that made me
happy. I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel. But it's very
necessary that I don't use any substances. I can't afford the
emotional, mental or financial damages. I am at the edge. If I move a
positive direction now, everything can be okay. But if I keep moving in
the wrong direction, I won't be around for long, at least not in any
important sense. I've had a lot of problems in the past few years, heck
my whole life, and I don't judge myself. In most ways, I've tried very
hard to make a go of life and, in some ways, I've done well. But I
repeat: I need to stay off substances. I'm just trying to burn that
into my brain.
Add On: It's very late now. It's been a long day. I think I got this
lesbian woman Kitty pregnant. Her partner and her already have kids but
want at least one more. Well, I came in her twice so, with any luck, we
all won't have wasted a night. I got back a rejection slip on my
application graduation. There's no imaginable reason why. I have reason
to think it's a technical error. God that's annoying. In this life, you
have to plan for bullshit or you'll never make it. This universe is not
a clock and demonstrates this to us regularly.