K journal entry 7/14

I'm in a fairly positive mood today. My life has been rather odd
lately. It's been something like being nailed up on a cross and then
taken down at the last minute. I had a crazy girlfriend who attacked me
when I was very sick. I responded by punching her and ending up in
jail. Out on my own and under heavy stress, I went into debt, something
I'd been careful never to do before. Eventually, I defaulted on my
debt. In the meantime, I deal with constant depression and A.D.D. To
improve this situation, I over-use alcohol and pot. A few days ago, I
tried shrooms and had an extremely bad trip. The main redeeming factor
of my life is that I go to University and do pretty well there.
For the first time in a while, I feel some tranquillity returning to my
life. I've been focusing on my studies, which have been physics for the
past few weeks. I've been listening to classical music and attending a
gourmet cooking class. Watching Wimbledon recently revived my old love
of tennis and I believe I've found a tennis partner. She's also a
college girl with a nice voice(I've only talked to her on the phone),
so maybe she could even turn into a girlfriend. Aside from that, I hope
to overcome my ADD enough to start reading some more poetry. For me,
there's nothing like reading poetry out loud. My very favorite poem is
Keats' "Ode to a Nightingale."
Anyway, the dark clouds have cleared away from my mind for a little bit
and I thought I'd send out a little rainbow. Peace.