A Penny For Your Thoughts

I feel as though I am walking on this endless winding road of nonsense. Lost within the universe. Searching. Searching for some kind of light in this darkness of the night.

The sun never rises, it never shines through my window. Or maybe it does, but I am too close minded to even notice. Maybe I am too close minded to even realize everything around me. That my life was given to me for a purpose...that I was created for a reason. 

But what if I don't feel purposeful? What if I just feel alone? Numb? Empty? 

Sometimes I think those that love me, love the wrong me. They love the person they see with the mask on. If the mask were to be taken off, what would they think then? 

Would they feel betrayed? Lied to? Humiliated for believing such a pure soul which was to be found empty? Would they abandon me or try to fix me like I am some lost cause? That is what I wonder at night. Consumed by the if, thens, and buts. 

Maybe I should get some sleep.