Gambler 6

Parties are not really my thing. Sometimes I have to attend and most of my fellow members of Achilles Heel are going to be there. Carolyn is going to be there and I get to polish up my French. I really don't know why I'm not living in France. Anyway, the tux, the drink, and morse code by blinking. That's how we communicate with each other. Carolyn is looking especially beautiful tonite. I tell her she is beautiful in morse code. There are some CIA agents at the party. I despise the CIA. They are so stupid and clumsy. "The rain in Spain is mainly on the plain," I say to Carolyn verbally. "You're losing your touch." "One does not applaud the tenor for clearing his throat." Keanu Reeves is at the party. He is going to be in a new film. "How do you do, Mr. Reeves?" "How do you do?" he returns. The thing is I don't much like celebrities either although they are not really phonies. Society is full of phonies. I'm guessing most people at the center of society drink too much. Most people outside of society drink too much. Maybe we should get together sometime. Fucking great idea. Sometimes, my mind has some real thoughts. Of course, I'm being sarcastic. I'm trying to work on my sarcasm and turn it into condescension. It's a move up. Carolyn is saying something completely meaningless and innocuous, but she's blinking that I should kill Trisha Trousseau aka Rachel Eckermann. I don't kill Jews, I tell her. The mob does not kill poets and I don't kill Jews. She frowns. Catherine Deneuve walks over to Keanu and they start discussing healthy diets or something and I know that she is trying to figure out if Paltrow is his lover. I don't know why people are so interested in other people's sex lives. Sex is so boring. Better to read a book. It gives much more lasting pleasure. Oh here comes the Dalai Lama. Gay-basher and spiritual healer. He can tell you how to live a good life but he can never win the political war. The Chinese and Tibetans should get together and sing Kum Ba Ya together. One happy family. Why do people assume that liberalism is a coherent philosophy. It's just as fragmented as conservatism. I love breaking things apart. It's my other hobby.