I think the debate with my brain, cleared a few dieting obstacles...

Day three on my new improved sandwich diet. Day three is usually a challenging diet day on most of my diet attempts. So I am ready for my brain to start waking up to the fact I have not consummed masses of sugar...

The thai chicken & lemon grass; cupper soup, in the evening,is really helping. Plus distraction. I savour every mouthful of the food I eat; take my time to eat & enjoy. I am training my body to be satisfied with less food, more healthy, non processed foods, though of course there are still foods with added preservatives, sugar.........etc.

Today I bought Tuna infused with lemon & thyme. I am getting another tuna infused with chili. When we go shopping on Christmas eve 'Hopefully we can get in Aldis'  I am going to stock up on lots of tasty sandwich fillers. Meats, cheeses, chutneys, salad, beetroot, humus, guacamole. There is so many tasty, healthy-ish foods you can fit in a sandwich 'Portion controlled' on a slice of bread. square sandwich thin in my case...

I love banana sandwiches, but I get the feeling it starts my brain 'WANTING!' sugary treats. Its as if a switch in my brain is flipped. From 'Eating like a sane person, in control' to...MUST! EAT! SUGARY SWEET FOOD!!! & I can't stop...

Then I feel guilty, feel like a complete useless 'FAT!' C£$%!!!!!!!!!!!

Which is not good. Self loathing & self destruction, is not healthy. Well so I read. So I am told to believe, but...In reality. Why not feel guilty? If it makes me look seriously at how to control my emotional 'change the way I feel' eating. The self loathing? I hate the way I look, I feel ugly, unattractive, unfeminine...Then I look deep. Get a reality check. Feel motivated to succeed. I also get things into perspective. Yeah! I could look & feel better, but why beat myself up over it. Just 'Do something about it' For myself...

Basically. I only have to start seeing results, even my face looking slimmer & I feel good. It takes a stone, 14 lbs; for me to look & feel so much better. Gaining that 14 lbs + some for daring to diet. That is pretty destructive emotionally, but not so extreme, that I go into a deep depression. More a HUGE! disapointment...

So. On this weight loss journey. I am 'maintaining' my weight loss in between. On Christmas day, I am having a roast dinner, christmas pudding, custard, brandy cream, or baily's cream. Bailey's cream is delicious. Mm! Not forgetting my christmas favourite. Snowballs. Advocat & lemonade. I love my christmas snowballs...

I'll probably have boxing day off, as well. Starting back on my weight loss journey, on December 27th 2020. When I can get back to my tasty sandwiches...

My tips for the sandwich diet, are...

• Eat 4 sandwiches each day. 8 slices of lower calorie bread....Bread is not your enemy. Being fat & unhealthy is...
• Eat every 3-4 hours.
• Eat a variety of foods, any food can go in a sandwich. Maybe not gravy, that might make the bread soggy...
• Add extra taste, to give your mind a taste sensation that makes it believe it is eating some delicious, deluxe meal. I use fig & balsamic chutney, tuna infused with chili, there is so much variety, enjoy being creative. It doesn't have to cost a small fortune, I get so much variety of tasty foods from Aldi & Lidl...
• Keep hydrated. Often that hunger feeling is just thirst. Herbal tea, with a dash of lemon juice {I use 2tsp} Is quite refreshing & takes the edge off my sweet cravings...
• Pile the salad leaves, tomatoes, cucumber, beetroot, avocado, etc...High. If you balance it right & push the bread down, it is quite secure, no collapsing sandwich chaos...
• The 3 'p's'...No not get 'P*ssed' Passive aggressive 'Procrastinate'...The 3 P's, are. Persistance, Patience, Poke fun at your fat self in the mirror...Oops! No. Persevere. Though that 3rd p, is the same as the 1st 1, more or less...
• Keep yourself motivated. This is where keeping a journal comes into its own. Motivativation is a whole journal post of its own...

That is my sandwich diet tips for now. I'm sure I will write many more, as I get further a long on my weight loss journey. There is no stopping, giving up, going back. I'm sure there will be a few diversions along the way, but I am ready. Hiking boots. Check. Backpack filled with essentials. Check. Sleeping bag, insect repellent, pop up tent. Check. I am prepared!

I think the little debate I had with my brain, actually helped. Brain is now on board with my dropping the stored fat. She agrees...She is being more helpful then nagging hinderance. I am very proud of how far she has come these last few days. Her reward? Feeling happier, healthier, more in control...

Nuff said for now...